I watched my father abuse my mother all the time, verbally, physically, and at times now at 35-years-old I catch myself acting like my step-father from all the abuse. I resent my mom which carries over to some of my relationships where I feel like I resent women because my mom never protected me growing up.
I can't blame everything on my step-father or my mom because ultimately I make my own decisions and nobody should be able to make me angry no matter what the situation is. I make myself angry, and I can't control nobody but myself.
I have issues right now but a year from now, every day I’m changing and learning and I don’t want to become worse than what I have been. I think that I’m in the process of change and I want to change so it starts with myself.